In my short amount of time on Earth, I’ve fallen in love with many different professions. Sadly, I’m not one of the lucky ones that has always known that there is this one thing that I was meant to do; instead, I’ve dipped my feet in plenty of different kinds of waters. Personally, doing it this way might just work out for me, because I question everything.
I’m not saying that I don’t half-ass things, because I definitely do sometimes, but I can never do anything without second guessing myself. My gut just doesn’t know what it wants. I am one hundred percent Allie from that scene in The Notebook where Noah asks her what she wants, and all she can do is shake her head and yell, “It’s not that simple!”
Because it isn’t. It’s my life that I’m talking about here, and my heart has changed its mind over and over again about what it wants to do for the next fifty years. I guess you can say it’s a big reason why I started my blog. I do my best thinking here, because I write what just comes to me naturally, but I also really think about what I’m doing here. I get clarity when I write.
So, without further ado, these are the most prominent professions that I can remember wanting to do with my life.
Britney Spears’ backup dancer
As a small child, I thought Brit was the coolest person ever, and all I wanted to do was be a backup dancer for her. I was a total ham back then, and I thought I was going to make it. What I didn’t think, though, was that Britney was going to end up in Vegas. This dream did not last too long, although it would still be pretty cool to dance with the queen herself.
I’ve been obsessed with houses and buildings for as long as I can remember, and while most kids doodled rad shapes like swirls and paisley prints in their notebooks, I would secretly design homes. Totally casual. (I still do this sometimes.) One of my wildest dreams is designing and having my own home built from scratch.
My English teachers throughout my educational experiences have always been my favorite (closely followed by my very punny math teachers). They were those who encouraged my creative writing the most, and have always had the best one-liners. I’ve consistently had really good relationships with my teachers, and I always thought that I could picture myself doing what they did.
What kid didn’t want to be a vet at some point? I’ve always loved animals more than humans, but I’ve come to learn that as much as I love them, I don’t have the heart (or smarts) to do that kind of job. I would get way too emotionally attached, and I know it.
I love events, and I love being in charge (but let’s be real, I would rather do things alone than trust people to do, well, anything). I’ve gotten a taste of this world while planning my little sister’s Sweet Sixteen that Never Happened and Amanda and Tim’s Wedding, and I still love this profession. I would totally do it in a heartbeat.
For a lot of my teenaged years, I’ve switched back and forth between this profession, being a writer, and an accountant: three very different jobs. In college, I even made psychology my major…but it’s not where my heart is at anymore. It was just so interesting that I was enticed by this subject. And I do love psych, but I don’t know if it was the route that I was meant to take.
For longer than I’ve been reading, I’ve been writing. It started with poems, then dialogue, and then chapters. I have a deep love for words, learning about new words, and how there is a word for just about anything. I’ve wanted to be in the same category as Sarah Dessen, Ann Brashares, Deb Caletti, Meg Cabot, Richelle Mead, Jenny Han, and Kody Keplinger.
I actually mentioned recently before how one of my dreams was to open a bar and call it The Library—a dream that was ripped from my hands the moment I found that my idea wasn’t so original. Still, I think opening a restaurant and bar type of setting wouldn’t be a bad idea.
I’ve also thought about opening a lip sync bar (you, know like a karaoke bar, but for people who can’t sing, like me). I don’t know if that sounds like a great or horrible idea, but I’ve seriously considered it. I think it sounds cool, but then I am reminded that I am basically a dad, where most things that I think are cool, aren’t.
Don’t ask me why this is so specific, but I thought that I would be really good at this kind of job. I still think that I would be good at this. Do you know how annoyed I get when some characters are described a certain way, and then an actor that looks nothing like that is casted? That is such a huge disappointment, right? I’m very particular about most things, a perfectionist if you will, and I would always keep the picture in mind of casting. Also, I think I have a good eye for talent—not like I really have any background for that or anything, but I am pretty good at pointing out people who make it big.
This is another job that I’ve switched back and forth between, but for the last year or so, I’ve been on this boat. I took an accounting class back in high school, and I loved everything about it. It came to me so easily, and I can imagine myself doing it as a full time job, and for a very long time.
My only issue with this is that most people who I have told this to say, “but accountants are so boring, they aren’t social, they just kind of do their job and go home, blah blah blah.” But you know what? That’s how I am at work now! You can even ask my sister-in-law, Ryan, who got me my very first job, how quiet I was. That’s just the way I function. I like getting the job done…and I’m really shitty at small talk. I hate small talk with a burning passion. Always have, always will.
So there you have it. A couple of these professions may seem like they were randomly pulled out of a hat, but I can tell you that they definitely were not. I’m just an oddball, I guess.
Do you find yourself in the same situation, not sure about where your heart lies? Or do you have any comments or questions? Let me know, because I do love the feedback.
Happy Hump Day!
Prompt: List professions that you’ve wanted to have throughout your life.