I feel like I can’t really pinpoint a moment in my life when I stood out, but I’m only saying that because I’ve technically always been different than everyone else. People always remembered me growing up, but mostly because of my hair. I’ve never been the center of attention per se, but I’ve become a memorable person for strangers. People—women, specifically—always had something to say about my hair.
“Do you know how much money people spend trying to get their hair to look like yours?”
“Which one of your parents did you get your hair from?”
“Ugh, I would die for your curls!”
“Can I touch it? I bet you play with it all the time!”
“Is that color natural?”
These are all direct quotes that I remember because I’ve heard them so many times. And I’m the kind of person who feels totally uncomfortable when others say those kind of things. I’ll say thank you or answer the questions, like any other human being would, but how are you supposed to get excited over things you’ve heard so often?
The answer: you don’t.
Thankfully, people don’t notice it anymore. Either because everybody dyes their hair crazy colors now or people just don’t care, I don’t know. What I do know is how grateful I am that I don’t have to hear about it anymore.
I guess I’ve also always stood out because of my body. I was born large, and I remain that way. I’ve somehow been blessed that I was never bullied in school because of it, but I think it’s obvious that they notice. I mean, how could you not? I am like Rebel Wilson, minus the talent and money. So I’m pretty boring.
I’m not completely comfortable being different, but I can say that I’ve never wished to have brown or blonde hair. That’s too boring for my taste. I did used to dye my hair a darker red, but I learned my lesson with dye jobs the hard way. You can’t get my natural hair color out of a box, so I probably won’t ever dye my hair again.
As for my body size, I would love to work on it. Nobody wishes to be plus size. I’m not going to completely bash the plus size community, because hey I’m a part of it and I’m all for body positivity, but I would like to be smaller. A healthy kind of smaller, though.
I enjoy being different, so I don’t think that I’m going to try to look like anyone else anytime soon. I’d rather stand out.
Prompt: When was the last time you really stood out in a crowd? Are you comfortable in that position, or do you wish you could fade into the woodwork?