If you’ve been reading my blog, you know that I was going through a rough patch. A really rough patch. I rarely left my
bedroom house, I barely spoke to anybody, and I didn’t eat all that much. Yeah, that’s when you know it’s bad; even food wasn’t my friend. And I love food. I usually found comfort in food. (Especially Taco Bell. And potatoes)
But this time around, I unexpectedly found my comfort in something else entirely.
In the last month of my life, I’ve watched more YouTube videos than I probably ever have before. I would come home from work, grab my iPad, and watch videos until I had to shower and go to bed. But it’s not like I would watch anything; I started with The Try Guys.
I hope that you know who The Try Guys are; they’re simply the best. The four friends (Keith, Ned, Zach, and Eugene) work for Buzzfeed, and basically started this segment because they were the only guys that worked for the company that were up to try anything. And publicize it all. If you watch their videos, you will love them, point blank. I mean, if you enjoy watching that kind of thing. Actually, they’re almost kind of like the guys from Impractical Jokers.
(Keith’s my favorite, but trust me, they’re all a catch in their own way.)
When I decided to try something else, I got into the REACT videos. These two brothers, The Fine Brothers, started this whole thing where they had different groups of people react to different things. There’s Kids React, Teens React, College Kids React, Adults React, FBE Staff React, and Elders React (I think that’s all of them). Besides reacting to random topics and artists, they also do challenges like Try Not To Laugh and Try Not To Sing Along, Guess That Song, Guess That Movie, People vs. Food, and Lyrics Breakdowns. It’s really just a bunch of things that I’m interested in, and I enjoy the challenges. I even ventured off to watch some of the reactors’ personal videos, like Tom Phelan and Eric Beckerman. They’re…interesting guys.
After I watched a ridiculous amount of those videos, I moved on to watching Liza Koshy, who does her own comedy videos. Then I found out her boyfriend, David, vlogs, so I started watching his content. And then basically of his friends’ videos, because they all started on Vine, so I previously knew who they were, and they all starred in David’s vlog, so I became interested in watching their own stuff. The ones I watch are Zane, Heath, Scott, Gabbie, Carly and Erin, and Jason. (And yes, I have a favorite, in case you were wondering. It’s Zane.)
I actually started watching all these videos about three months ago, but I wasn’t like addicted to them until I was in my dark place, and I guess that’s why nobody really noticed it happening. I became so consumed with watching these videos because they made me smile and laugh and seem like my normal, everyday self. I didn’t look like I was depressed, I was just more quiet than usual. But watching those videos took that away. They took away my thoughts when I needed them to, they filled that void I had in my life.
And even though I feel better about myself and my life, I still watch the videos. They make me feel good, and now, I’m also kind of invested in the people who make the content. Plus, I can’t really spend money right now because I started my Christmas shopping. Watching those videos costs zero dollars, while leaving my house usually means spending every penny I have.
I’d rather watch the videos.
I think if someone were to make me a physical representation of the last month of my life, it would probably be of the YouTube icon. In the darkest of times, those videos I watched, and the people in them, gave me light. They made me laugh, and become invested in something other than the terrible thoughts I was having around the same time. One of the vloggers, Gabbie, even released a book filled with poems, called Adultolescence, which is amazing, and also really helped me out of the dark. I’m actually going to be writing a piece about Gabbie, and her book, soon. I’m kind of excited about it.
Prompt: Your personal sculptor is carving a person, thing, or event from the last month of your life into glistening marble of immortality. What’s the statue, and what makes it significant?